How does a person survive torture or hell?

All I really know about torture is all the horror movies I watch. My idea of horror is Jigsaws’ puzzles in Saw movies. I couldn’t imagine what real life torture would be like.

Obviously I don’t want to find out, but I think that the people who have been through difficult things in their lives like that it takes a lot of faith and the will to carry on.

Learning about the Holocaust, it talks a lot about what people went through during that time. Hiding and running your whole life isn’t the way most people want to live and it wasn’t just that. People were miserable! I wouldn’t know what that’d be like, but I can say it definitely falls under the category of torture.

Hell is a complicated term if you think about it. Hell can be a lot of things. A few people in my family are Satanists and to them, hell is their heaven. I am yet to have a faith or grasp an understanding of previous and after lives but to me, hell is what you make it. Just like life is what you make it. I think just living in a proctor house a ways away from home is hell but there are people out there that are going through a million times worse struggles. I have just learned to not complain about my life until I have it really bad.

So I’ve given a lot of thought to death and whether or not there is an afterlife. Is there a Heaven or Hell? Is there a God for that matter? I think to answer these questions I need to find out my own answers. Nobody can tell me what I believe.
I went to church a lot with my parents just to please them. If there is a God, then I’m pretty sure that this would offend Him. The first thing I need to find out is whether or not God is real. Then I can look into organized religions to fit what I believe.
One of my major problems is how lazy I am. I’m not really committed to a lot of things unless I want to do it. Based on what I know about religion it is a lot of work. I question myself a lot on whether or not I would commit myself. A lot of it is just because it is really hard.
In conclusion, I can’t learn anything without looking first. I really am fascinated by a lot of religions, but all of them have something that I don’t believe in. This makes it really hard for me to find what I want or need. I don’t think that I will ever find anything perfect, but I think living the way I believe is right is the best thing I can do. All I can do right now is look.


Aaron

“In war there are no unwounded soldiers”

I think the quote means that in war even if a soldier is not physically hurt, they still might be emotionally or mentally hurt. I don’t think that Vladek will get the respect from his country that a veteran deserves. I think it’s sad that he won’t have his country be proud of him just because he is a Jew. Every veteran deserves to have their country be proud of them.

I think it would be a lot different to go to war now. Back then I think it would have been a lot crazier to go into an area infested with the enemy with just you, your gun and your fellow troops. You would have to go in their like a savage and blast the enemy before they blast you. Now it’s just bombs and missiles most soldiers don’t even know who they are killing whether it be women, men, or children.

My uncle fought in the war between Chile, Peru, Argentina, and Bolivia. Chile won the war and took Bolivia’s access to the pacific.


Felipe

“You’re either for the court of against the court.” I’ve heard similar words or at least felt them. I felt that my proctor was for the court and she just wanted me to stay in custody as long as possible. In the beginning, I felt that everyone wanted to keep me in the system as long as possible. I felt that it was my family and I against everyone else.

Do I believe the world is black and white? I definitely don’t believe that the world is just black or just white or black and white. I know some people have good morals and standards, but aren’t always the kindest. Some people do honestly believe and follow what their standards are, and there’s some people that pretend to look good and go to church and to the public they’re perfectly innocent, but on the inside it’s complete opposite.

Well, life is pretty damn weird and confusing! My quest of figuring the world out is highly unorganized… I start one project and get side tracked in the blink of an eye. At the moment I am trying to find myself a faith, because not having one makes my life a little scary, being atheist is becoming harder than I thought because I am one of the most scared of dying. Everyone who says they aren’t afraid to die drive me crazy. I am terrified! I have been looking into witchcraft lately as crazy as that may sound. People see that as a bad thing mostly but the kind of witchcraft I am interested in isn’t what’d you call “evil”… good witchcraft? Yes it’s possible, I know a lady that I am very close to, she is like a mother to me, and she practices witchcraft and she is the most admirable person I know. Basically all it is, is you attract positive energies and cast helpful or spells with good intentions. I know I’d get a lot of shit from people being a witch but that’s how the world is, judge mental people left and right. I try be best not to judge people in a negative way! All in all I just want to make peace with the world and with the people around me

Today’s been a long day. I have to go on a mission for someone I thought I was going to get in trouble because of someone but I guess not. I’m getting really stressed out because its getting close to May and I don’t have anything done that I have to get done with I’m going to finally graduate! whoop whoop! I’m so happy I get to be done with school I’m feeling the pressure but I’m sure I can do it, ugh I need a massage or something along the lines. I’m going to take my graduation pictures this Wednesday. That’s coming up I’m so excited and its going to be free which is even more great because X’s is a really good photo person. I need to stop doing all thins I still need to also help student counsel with all the prom thing ,wow ,its going to be a long two months but I can do it I just can’t wait till Friday!

Stefany

This weekend is going to be great I’m going to finish, my project, practice skating, and glow sticking. My project is making a tie dye bed set so far I’ve made a cover sheet and a pillow case. I still need to make the blanket and another pillow sheet but I’ve ran out of dye.

I’m also getting back into skating because summer is around the corner and I’m planning to get good again. Back in the summer of 2008, I was doing 6 stairs like nothing. My friends and I would skip school every morning and jump on the UTA and go to Salt Lake City. I was becoming so fearless and learning quickly but now I’m scared of even doing an Ollie off a four stair. It’s because I spent all last summer in a proctor house and then I broke my hand and wrist so skating was out of the picture.

One thing that came out of sitting in the house all year was I developed a skill for glow sticking. I’ve never been so good at something in my whole life. I’ve learned so quickly and can’t stop trying to get better. I’m hoping to some day be getting sponsored or become an entertainer and do poi. Poi is part of the polynesian culture where they spin fire around there body and create a type of art which is where glow sticking came from. This summer I’m planning on playing with fire. I’m putting the sticks away and bringing out the fire balls.


Sergio